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Cancer 176

I had a number of ideas about this blog but the chemobrain means that ideas fall out of my brain like lemmings off a cliff (except lemmings dot do that, do they?). My brain is significantly affected by my treatment, unless the cancer has got to my brain. I wouldn’t know if it has because […]

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Cancer 175

It was the second anniversary of my sister’s death the other day. I hadn’t realised until I was reminded of it. She died of cancer while I was in the throes of learning that I had a cancer diagnosis and preparing for my operation. I didn’t have time to think or feel much about her […]

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Cancer 174

My treatment starts on Tuesday. My bloods are all fine, the cancer marker has increased slightly. I still don’t know the outcome of my scan, but if it reflects the look and feelings of my abdomen and bowels then alarm bells will ring. My abdomen is even more misshapen than usual, my innards feel like […]

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Cancer 173

I am in hospital for my consultant meeting prior to restarting my chemotherapy. I have had six weeks off, six weeks where we have been away three times, attempting to take advantage of the time. We went to the Netherlands, Yorkshire and Shropshire. All good, but I am exhausted. Holidays are supposed to be restful. […]

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Cancer 172

I am continuously conscious of my limitations in life, my inability to do things I used to find easy, my slowness, my lack of energy, my failure to get up and do, how I look at a job that needs doing and don’t do it, how my lethargy ensures a lack of action. It is […]

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