Uncategorized Category

Cancer 197

I have read quite a lot of Holocaust literature. The subject fascinates me, as it reveals some of the worst and best aspects of human behaviour. Currently, I am reading Jozcef Debreczeni’s Cold Crematorium. Written just after the war by a Hungarian journalist who lived in Vojvodina, now part of Serbia. The book was largely […]

Read More

Cancer 196

I never did like roller coasters. Not that I have been on a real one, only the physical and emotional one that I am living through right now. Things have changed since my last post. Instead of moving on to the new (and final) treatment I am remaining on the original treatment, as the cancer […]

Read More

Cancer 195

I have decided that, assuming this is the final phase, that I should see it as an adventure, the last adventure. Why should dying not be an adventure? Lots of big adventures end with death, though usually they are not inevitable, so exploring the process of bodily decay and shutdown is my adventure. Today I […]

Read More

Cancer 194

It isn’t looking good. It is getting worse by the week. The bastards are growing inside me. This is the last day of our holiday. I am writing from a Swedish cafe in Grasmere. I have a blood test on Thursday, usual consultant on Friday and radiotherapy consultant on Monday. Perhaps a combination of drugs […]

Read More

Cancer 193

I have always tried to be my true self with these posts, showing my thoughts and feelings as they are at the time of the post. This is why there are plenty of downs as well as ups, along with the confusion that is the way I am often thinking and feeling. The confusion is […]

Read More