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Cancer 193

I have always tried to be my true self with these posts, showing my thoughts and feelings as they are at the time of the post. This is why there are plenty of downs as well as ups, along with the confusion that is the way I am often thinking and feeling. The confusion is […]

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Cancer192

Well, it was bound to happen. After spending the last couple of years with my head firmly buried in the sand regarding the performance of my little lumps of cancer, my claims about their hopeless performance, given that the cancer is meant to be aggressive, they are now starting to show their true colours. I […]

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Cancer 191

Having cancer does mean having pain, some of it chronic. I am having a lot of soreness from my stoma, and problems with my abdomen, that good old bag of cancer. These chronic pains may be the cause of yesterday’s stupidity. I filled my pill box as usual. I have 4 drugs in the morning […]

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Cancer 190

Today I started my 36th round of chemotherapy. It is late evening and I am sitting with my bottle of flourouracil dangling from a tube attached to my portacath and hence to my heart. It is dripping slowly into my bloodstream, and should continue to do so until Thursday afternoon, so I need to be […]

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Cancer 189

It is a bit of a struggle at the moment. The main problem is my hernia, or hernias, as it feels like my abdomen is a sieve, with bits trying to poke out in various different places. I have a deep chesty cough and every time I cough it is a) painful, b) feels like […]

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