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Cancer 222

When I started this blog, my intention was todescribe the process of having cancer, and dying from cancer. It has been ongoing for nearly three years now. I was diagnosed in January 2023 and started chemotherapy in June 2023. Until recently, I have been relatively stable. The chemotherapy worked for a reasonably long period, and […]

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Cancer 221

I am feeling increasingly like I am fighting the battle of Stalingrad – and I am the Germans. I have limited resources, resources that in the past I would use outside, whether for working in the garden, working at my career, making a meal, driving long distances, mending something in the house, or whatever. These […]

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Cancer 220

A day with developments. I am unsure whether to call them good or bad, positive or negative. I think I am losing the ability to judge right from wrong. I was at the hospital today to see the consultant. Fortunately, I saw the main consultant, not the person I had last time with whom I […]

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Cancer 219

The endless cycles of cancer. I think I notice changes much more than when I was well. In my state I need to notice what appear to be small changes because they might have massive consequences. This at least partially explains the roller coaster nature of my life. I was driving to have my blood […]

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Cancer 218

Tom Stoppard is dead. I didn’t know he was Czech until the other day. He wrote Rosencrantz and Guildenstern, an absurdist play based on Hamlet that I somehow liken to my two forms of morphine, zoomorph and oromorph. I don’t know which is which, but in an absurdist world it doesn’t really matter. In the […]

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