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Cancer 97

This is a two part piece, the first part is before meeting the consultant, the second is after. Are there differences between the two regarding the way.my mind is working? Part One I am sort of glad to be back to treatment, though it might be that treatment is not deemed appropriate due to bodily […]

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Cancer 96

It has been a while since my last post, partly because I was still enjoying my holiday in France. I did manage to drive all the way to the Pyrenees and back, though I found it more tiring than I used to and had to stop by 3pm. My day seems to be shifting earlier. […]

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Cancer 95

The non-existence of god. As I sit here and feel the immediacy of dying, my views about death have still not changed. I have talked about this in my earlier blogs, but I am allowed to be repetitious. It’ll stop soon. I have had my diagnosis of cancer for a year this month (congratulations!) and […]

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Cancer 94

This notion of dying is still lingering in me, partly perhaps due to this immense feeling of tiredness, and partly due to having a cold, which with a hardly functioning immune system is manflu++. I have my aches and pains, common enough but to my neurotic mind, increasing in intensity. I have visual problems, particularly […]

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Cancer 93

I had a terrible dream last night, one of those that takes over your whole self, even when you have woken up. Probably fortunately I don’t remember it in detail though I did for the first minutes after waking, but it was about having cancer, and I was bleeding heavily around the lower abdomen and […]

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