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Cancer 22

I was looking at the Dignitas website earlier, wondering why it is only in Switzerland that there is a civilised way of dealing with voluntary death due to illness or disability. I wonder whether I should join, if only to be prepared for contingencies. As it says on the website, many people join to be […]

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Cancer 21

I have noticed that my blogs are not upbeat enough, though I keep saying they will be. Well, today I walked right round the ward and found the important places, the.kitchen and the storeroom. I actually wanted to walk further but I don’t think they will let me out of the ward just yet. I […]

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Cancer 20

The dressing is removed. Let the air get to it. Just a few blisters, otherwise ok. The worst bit for me is that they cut through my belly button!

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Cancer 19

After the tone of the previous two blogs it is perhaps time to be a little more positive. Last night was awful, with the realisation of death, the loneliness, the total helplessness, but there is no reason to despair. If I despair then I will lead a miserable life for whatever period I have left. […]

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Cancer 18

I am having a bad night. It is 2am. I feel I have only weeks. At most levels I accept it, but sometimes the other side takes over. I have some pain and discomfort now, the vital signs are all over the place. I want a piss but I have a catheter so it drips […]

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