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Cancer 10

My sister died yesterday. It was cancer. She was 63 years old. It is good that our parents are not around to see both children with cancer. It can be a strange relationship, that between siblings. I would not dream to judge other people’s relationships. All are similar, all different, but ours was one of […]

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Cancer 9

0727. Today the treatment has a beginning. This afternoon is the pre-op. I will be meeting again with the surgeon and with the nurse, and then have an appointment with the anaesthetist, who may want to test my fitness. Hopefully I am fit enough. The wait is notoriously long. I am going in early to […]

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Cancer 11

I generally have an optimistic starry-eyed view of the world, where my cancer will be cured, but today has been one of those days where it has been difficult to keep staring at the stars. Last night I spent too long on or near the toilet , with my abdominal cramps worse than normal, and […]

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Cancer 13

Notions of god have never played an important part in my life. Having a life challenging experience such as the one I am currently going through has made no difference whatsoever to my views. As I have said in an earlier post; you don’t exist, you exist, you don’t exist. That’s it. I have my […]

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Cancer 8

Sometimes it is overwhelming. It is difficult to describe in words. It can reach a point where I feel I cannot cope, I cannot cope with my cancer, my sister’s cancer (she is in the final stage of life) and my heart failure, let alone the everyday stressors of life; yet I have to cope, […]

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