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Cancer 228

It is nearly 4am and today I am off to the hospital to start my 48th round of chemotherapy. Yesterday, when I realised it was time, I suppressed a sob. Do I want to do this? No. Do I need to do this? No. Why am I doing this? I don’t know. Am I doing […]

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Cancer 227

I don’t like cats. They are so damned arrogant, self-centred, selfish and proud. When they want attention, they demand it, if you want their attention they ignore you. I have just had all three lying on the bed with me, wanting fuss. How lovely, they are paying attention to me. Yeah, right. They just wanted […]

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Cancer 226

If I had written this yesterday it would probably have been entirely negative. I had one if the worst days since the weeks after my operation. It is said they use this treatment after the failure of the first because the side effects are so much worse. They are, and they hit later. As usual […]

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Cancer 225

It is the middle of the night (0347), it has been snowing, and we are supposed to be going on holiday to the Lake District today for few days – that 6 day period I get between hospital visits every fortnight. I am not sure yet whether we will be able to leave in the […]

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Cancer 224

This is the point where everyone says Happy New Year. I have never been comfortable with those kinds of phrases. Beyond a certain good manners, their words are not meant to convey any real meaning. I am not convinced this is going to be a happy new year for me. The growths in my abdomen […]

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