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Cancer 253

I may be entering a new phase of cancer life. This one is about waking up in the morning and wishing you hadn’t, wishing that you had died peacefully in your sleep. It is not every day – yet, but the number of times it is happening is increasing, particularly over the last couple of […]

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Cancer 251

I have just started my third cancer treatment, after the failures of the first – which worked well for over two years – and the second – which didn’t work well at all and just seemed to make me more ill. I am now starting the third with significantly increased numbers of tumours and tumour […]

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Cancer 244

Chemo brain (chemo-brain, chemobrain?) is a thing. It is a thing I have in increasing quantity/amount. There are two main components at the moment, at the lower level I forget words, usually nouns, at the higher level I forget whether I have said something, or had something said to me. I forget people’s names, I […]

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Cancer 237

Well, it is an, exciting life having terminal cancer. Up to this morning I was thinking I was running into my last weeks. I have now been to see the consultant. It turns out that because the tumour growth was under 20% (I don’t know whether that means 5% or 19%, but it feels more […]

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Cancer 235

I have felt ghastly these last few days. I am not impressed by the side effects of chemo. I was very lucky for the first couple of years in that most of the time I had few such effects. Now they are, I won’t say unbearable, because humans can put up with anything if they […]

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