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Cancer 218

Tom Stoppard is dead. I didn’t know he was Czech until the other day. He wrote Rosencrantz and Guildenstern, an absurdist play based on Hamlet that I somehow liken to my two forms of morphine, zoomorph and oromorph. I don’t know which is which, but in an absurdist world it doesn’t really matter. In the […]

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Cancer 217

You know that feeling, that feeling that by definition most of us have never had? I have been getting a bit of that feeling over the last few days. Dying, that it. We usually experience the process of dying from the outside, watching others as they go through the process. I have this rotten feeling […]

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Cancer 214

It isn’t all looking rosy. I think this period is requiring all I have in keeping that glass half full. This is a period of waiting. I will be seeing the consultant on Friday. I am aware there is going to be a multidiscipplinary meeting to discuss me, and the only reason that needs to […]

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Cancer 213

It seems my last post disturbed a few people. Tough – try having my disturbance levels! I always said the blogs would reflect my mood and how I feel. I do feel a little better than I did before. When I feel ill I am supposed to ring the Rapid Response LIne available to people […]

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Cancer 212

It appears that things are changing, and not for the better. I had a scan last week, but I won’t get the results for a while because I am still on my treatment break. I assume I will get them in a couple of weeks when I see the consultant. I am expecting growths in […]

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