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Cancer 255

Unlike during the rest of my life, whether fit and healthy, with heart failure or with cancer, it is now unusual to be awake for extended periods in the middle of the night. I usually sleep, wake up for the toilet, sleep, repeat. I havelittle doubt that I will sleep once I have completed this […]

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Cancer 253

I may be entering a new phase of cancer life. This one is about waking up in the morning and wishing you hadn’t, wishing that you had died peacefully in your sleep. It is not every day – yet, but the number of times it is happening is increasing, particularly over the last couple of […]

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Cancer 251

I have just started my third cancer treatment, after the failures of the first – which worked well for over two years – and the second – which didn’t work well at all and just seemed to make me more ill. I am now starting the third with significantly increased numbers of tumours and tumour […]

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Cancer 248

I did a short speech at the living wake, trying to explain my views about cancer and death. A couple of people have asked me to summarise it here, so in the interests of breaking my own rules of blogging, here goes, beraing in ming that, two days later, I am still very tired and […]

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Cancer 244

Chemo brain (chemo-brain, chemobrain?) is a thing. It is a thing I have in increasing quantity/amount. There are two main components at the moment, at the lower level I forget words, usually nouns, at the higher level I forget whether I have said something, or had something said to me. I forget people’s names, I […]

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